Don't Lower Your Standards Just Because You Are Lonely

 DON'T LOWER YOUR STANDARDS JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE LONELY.

       We’re living in a world where true love doesn’t exist. We’re too busy living on other’s people expectation till we forgot of how we truly expect towards ourselves. We forgot how it feels to feel. We forgot how it is to be free. To express ourselves to the fullest. To control the mind and the feelings to its finest. We’re so damn caught up in the society where everything’s must go right. But what we missed is that, there will be no right and wrong when it comes to being vulnerable. Fell in love ain’t easy knowing that there’s this pain and bitterness comes follow whenever there’s rainbow and butterflies to our sense. It won’t let us be someone who are feel it to the fullest.

We tend to compare ourselves to what we are seeing on screen. Blaming ourselves for not being enough to have the kind of happiness of what society shows and expect us to have. We curse ourselves and feeling shitty for being alone because happpiness definition from what people's put into our mind is how to be someone who have a person that fills our days and our Instagram story and feeds. When the reality is that there will be no one who could complete ourselves when we are not even feel complete when we are on our own. Happiness comes from within and it is not meant to be from other people, not to mention a person. 

Find who you are before you even find someone else. Seek the love from within before you crave love from other people. Everything may seems so perfect from the surface but when you really dig deep to the root of the situation, you came to realization that at the end of the day we only want to be someone who other people's look up to, we only want to impress people who are not even have honest feelings towards us. We wanted to be part of something that we thought it could help us to fit in. We keep trying so hard to fill those expectation holes and fit into boxes that most of people built in. 

I have been someone who always think that sincerity is the ultimate key to have someone, but what i did not realize is that i did not look who's the person i gave my grace and my honesty. I keep giving and pouring till there's nothing left, emptiness and bitterness comes along whenever i though i did the right thing. I keep loving somene endlessly and unconditionally till people starting to think that i did it because of stupidity. They think that i have no common sense of what should i be in this modern world where everyone only think of themselves. I keep loving and caring to the people who does not even think about me. 

At the end of the day, what i have learned is that no matter how sincere i am, how vulnerable, how loving, how genuine i am when it comes to that someone i always lose them. Because they are scared of it, it is something that they could never understand since they're living just to fill the holes till they scared of something who deosn't have holes anymore. Embrace your lonliness, embrace your sincerity, embrace your vulnerability. We might hurt, we might stabbed, we might be knocked. But one thing i can guarantee you, there will be times where you finally found your people, you person. Just be patient.